Going to the free clinic tomorrow…

I have no idea what it is, but for the last week, I’ve had a pain in my right side between the bottom of my ribs to just on the inside of my pelvic bone. In the last couple of days, it’s gotten worse. It started as just a slight pain near my pelvis, but yesterday and today it has grown to the size it is now.

Honestly, I’m terrified of what it might be. If it’s my appendix and I need an appendectomy, I have no way I’d be able to pay for it, because I don’t yet have a job. I went onto WebMD, and went to the symptom checker, put in everything and it cam up with diverticulitis, gastritis, gallstones and gas pains as the topmost possibilities. I know it isn’t gas pain, because I’ve had gas pains, and these aren’t it. I don’t know which of the other three are more likely, but none of them are very pleasant. Gastritis seems mildly likely, because I’ve been taking Aleve (naproxen) for my costochondritis, and one of the causes listed for gastritis is taking NSAID’s, such as aleve. Unfortunately, it also states that more often than not, the pain from gastritis is on the LEFT side, not the RIGHT, where mine is.

Another thing that frustrates me about all three of those options is that all of them state that a fever is usually present, and I don’t have a fever at all. I feel like shit, but I don’t have a fever.

Another thing that didn’t show up in the top four was gastroenteritis, which is just a stomach flu, which can cause the stomach/intestinal lining to become inflamed. I’m really hoping it’s just that, because Bryan, Kendall and our friend Jake were all sick very recently. Unfortunately, I’m not feeling all of what they felt when they were sick, so I’m not sure if it’s that or something else. I can always hope that it’s just that and nothing more, though.

I’m honestly terrified of what it might be. I can’t afford a trip to the hospital again, especially since I still owe them almost 20 grand for sticking their thumbs up their asses and redoing all of the tests I refused, with Kendall there as my witness. I can’t afford a trip for them to tell me I just have a stomach bug that isn’t acting the way stomach bugs usually do, and if it IS my appendix, I can’t afford the surgery I would need for it.

Seriously, I’m fucking terrified. I’m scared and all I can do is hope and pray that the free clinic can help me.


Acoustic Progressive Metal?!

I have completely and utterly fallen IN LOVE with this band, Pipo & Elo. They did a completely acoustic cover of Dream Theater’s album, Metropolis Pt. II: Scenes from s Memory.

You can listen to most of it here.
I recommend Overture 1928, Beyond This Life and Home. And the rest of them. And purchasing the album, because it’s COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY AND UTTERLY WORTH IT!

Seriously, I think the guitarist, Pipo, must actually be better than John Petrucci, because because he does all of the guitar solos and then some, as well as all of the keyboard parts on top of that. It really does add a whole new level of intrigue to the entire experience of the album.

They also did The Dance of Eternity FLAWLESSLY, even though DT says that it’s their hardest song for all of the instruments.

What is the music that moves you?

I want to know what it is that moves you.

I have a list of songs that do a lot of things to me, personally. I’m not sure about any of you, but these songs hit me so hard, I can’t quite explain how or why.

These are a few of them:

Hermod’s Ride to Hell – by Amon Amarth (lyrics are in the description)

This song, I was listening to it on the bus to the train station one day, and I had to stop listening to it because I started to cry. I could feel Baldr’s chains, I could see Sleipnir’s breath fogging the frigid air and could feel his eight hooves thundering underneath me. I was Hermod, rushing to save my brother, and making deals with Hel; I was Baldr, frozen and bound in an eternity of pain; I was Hel, finally with my love in my clutches, whether he wanted it or not; I was Loki, laughing and scorning them all from afar.

It was too much for me. I still can’t listen to it without a clutch in my throat.

The Gauntlet – by Demon Hunter (lyrics in description)

The first time I heard this song, I was blasting the album in my room, home alone. Since I was alone, I had turned the music up as loud as I wanted (read: too damned loud). I was rocking my way through the song until the end, when he says, “I hide in the corner…that look on your face, I’m accustomed to it”. When that line came up, every painful memory of my life came pouring back. I sat in the corner, terrified of what my stepmother was going to do; mourning the loss of a best friend, whose ring I still wear; afraid, afraid, afraid of what was going to go wrong today, and knowing that it was impossible to avoid it. The look on everyone’s faces was a look I was so accustomed to, that it didn’t affect me anymore. (If you want to know why I’m a dick, look there for a start)

The Ministry of Lost Souls – by Dream Theater (live version, excuse his voice)

This song is so perfect in every way that I can’t think of any way to possibly improve on it. Every time I hear this song, I have to stop what I’m doing to listen to it. If it’s a video, I have to watch them play. If it’s a GuitarPro file, I have to watch the instruments in action. The music tells the story of the song in ways the lyrics never could, but those lyrics still tell the story in ways the music by itself could not.

Anyway, I won’t keep going on and rambling forever, so tell me about you. Feel free to blog at me in the comments. I’d really like to know!